Growing up I always had a hard time doing what I was told. I don’t know if it’s the Taurus in me, being the first-born child…who knows, maybe it’s the red hair. All I know is that somewhere in my constitution there was a switch that flipped to “oh hell no” when I was told that I should be doing something, just because they “said so”. Sometimes it was an intellectual reaction- the request just didn’t make sense to me. However, most often the reaction was completely from-the-gut; a visceral need to understand their motivation in order to consider/embrace it completely. Without knowing it, I was learning how to trust my intuition. Even as a child, I didn’t trust that their direction was for my highest good. Now, as an eight-year-old, I didn’t understand what was going on…and needless to say, neither did the adults dealing with me.

A few years ago I stepped onto a path of mind-body-spirit wellness that truly has been an adventure. I’ve been purposefully working on opening up my “clairs” – clairsentience (clear sensing or emotional layer sensing), clairvoyance (seeing with the Third Eye), clairaudience (clear hearing), and claircognizance (clear knowingness), as well as developing relationships with my Guides, Angels, and Totem Animals. I’ve reached a point where I communicate with them throughout the day on a variety of subjects. Although I do ask them for their guidance, more often than not I find that… you guessed it… I’m being told what to do! WHAT?! What I find even more fascinating is that I’m listening! With no flipping of the switch!

I find it ironic that I spent the first half of my life resisting direct orders, and here I am elated to be receiving guidance multiple times a day. I’m quite sure They’ve had a few chuckles at this as well. I accept Their direction because when They “tell” me something, it resonates as a pure and absolute truth, completely satisfying my “gut”. This is why the “oh hell no” switch doesn’t get flipped with them. Of course old habits do die hard. I spend quite a bit of time taking the directive/guidance up into my head and finding all kinds of reasons why the information isn’t convenient, doesn’t make sense, etc.  However, I am very clear on the fact that in this case, we – family, friends, clients…strangers in the grocery store… all benefit the most when we simply do what we’re told.

Dang it.

Julie Tufte, RM/T, CCht